What a brilliant fucking year this has been. I feel as if I had to curse there just to stress exactly how good 2015 was.
You always hear people talking about the year that defined them as a person. “23 was the best year of my life, that was the year it all happened”. I always thought it was bullshit. How can one specific year out of your whole life change everything, how can you pick one year out of the bunch? Isn’t every year made up of highs and lows and general disappointment?
Well it’s not bullshit guys, I know now what they’re all talking about.
That year for me, the defining one, was 2015. The Year I turned 26 and learned how to really live.
I moved into my own place in a town I actually feel safe in, that was great. I photographed some epic weddings and ticked some pretty good business goals off my list, that was also great.
The biggest takeaway from the year though, has been that I’m totally capable of chasing my dreams and achieving them.
I spoke in public for the first time – who the fuck in my life ever thought I could do that? Well I sure didn’t. But guess what? I did it, and I bloody enjoyed it.
I made proper friends. Not the “It’s been like a year, let’s hang out soon, oh and before I forget I have a favour to ask you” friends, but REAL friends. Friends that I see more than twice a year, the ones that invite themselves over to my house, that make themselves at home, that text me to see how my day went just because they give a shit.
I left my comfort zone on so many occasions that I can’t count anymore. Totally getting over my fear of being a guest in someone else’s home, going to the bar to order drinks, calling people on the phone, talking to strangers in public, being myself around everyone regardless of who they are.
It was a record breaking year in my life in terms of my Social Anxiety and while I could sit here and be proud of myself, give myself a little break and a nap. I won’t.
2016 is here and it’s going to move at a much quicker pace, just like it does every year, so how am I going to make it count? THAT is the next challenge. What can I do to keep my Social Anxiety from rearing it’s fugly head.
It’s gonna be an interesting ride, and hopefully you will join me!
Happy New Year Folks,
Much Love. Kel XOXO
