How Social Anxiety Made Me Grateful For These 5 Things

How Social Anxiety Made Me Grateful For These 5 Things

If you told me 13 years ago, that I'd be grateful for having had a social anxiety disorder most of my life, I'd probably want to kick you in the shin. Social anxiety has been the biggest part of my life, it consumed me through my teenage years and taunted me as an adult. For a long time, I felt as if I'd missed out on an important chunk of my life and I desperately wanted the experiences that everyone around me had. It's easy to hate your mental illness, I did for years. I just wanted it gone and the fact that it lingered for so long, tore me up inside. The last couple of years have been a whirlwind and I have now reached a point where I can manage my social anxiety. It's still there, I don't believe it will truly ever go away since I've had it for 20+ years but I can manage it much better, enough to live a "normal" life (whatever the fuck normal is). Having reached this point, I've been able to reflect properly on my life with social anxiety and see myself in a clearer view. This reflection has taught me that my experience with social anxiety is not something I feel hurt about and I certainly don't see it as being unfair, in fact it has made me grateful. "What did it make … READ MORE